Just one week left of the challenge I set for myself (and anyone else who happens to be following along). Today, I was tired. Tomorrow is a full moon, so a day off, followed by Saturday (the regular Ashtanga day of rest). Two whole days off. That’s right. I say Namasté to that. Woo!
So, today was my last day of practice for a while. But instead of really forcing myself to work hard in my challenge pose, urdhva dhanurasana (wheel), I decided just to observe and feel around inside the pose, exactly the way I had it today. Did I say I was tired? Holy cats, was I tired. And here’s the lesson: some days we just don’t got it.
Right? What can I do if I’m exhausted today? I certainly won’t be at the peak of my ‘performance.’ But it’s not about performance. It’s life. It’s experience. I have to let go of the expectation that every day I’ll top the day before. Sometimes I regress. Sometimes I jump forward light years, only to drop back the next day. We have to unattach from the expectation that we will be more awesome today than yesterday. It just doesn’t happen like that. When we seek to recreate an experience we’ve already had (that we probably had accidentally, i.e. organically), then we manifest misery.
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