So, yes. I talk a good game and I even teach a good game, but man, I have been in the bell jar of late in regards to faith. It's hard, right? I mean, that's the definition of faith--it's all about belief and not necessarily (ever) about proof. Although, enter catch-22, the more you have faith, the more you manifest, which proves your faith fruitful. But to get what you want, to get what you don't have, you have to believe you'll have it. And when you're nestled in the soft, downy blanket of self pity, knowing you have to get up and out into the cold world to gain access to that faith, well. Sometimes it's just easier to stay in bed.
This morning, I asked for help, for a sign, for anything. I got onto my usual Twitter crawl to see what was what in the yoga world and saw this tweet by Doreen Virtue: "Today, create a list called 'Thank you, Universe!' which contains everything you’re grateful for." I literally thought, oh that must be my sign. Meh, not in the mood.
Seriously? Maybe that's why my faith has been hiding away for so long. So I told myself to shut up and make the list. So, here it is (some of it, anyway). It hasn't worked yet, but maybe it's like that whole spend-money-to-make-money business. I'll spend a little faith today and we'll see where I am tomorrow.
Ha! So, I just wrote this post, and this landed in my inbox from DailyOm.com:
One of the hardest things in life is feeling stuck in a situation that we don’t like and want to change. We may have exhausted ourselves trying to figure out how to make change, and we may even have given up. However, each day offers us an opportunity to renew our resolve and to declare to the universe that we are ready for change. We may even say out loud that we have tried and struggled and have not found a way, but that we are open to help, and that we intend to keep working to create change for ourselves. Making this declaration to the universe, and to ourselves, may be just the remedy for the stagnation we are experiencing. And, it can be done today, right now.
Okay. I'm listening (with faith & gratitude).