I know we're trained to think that we must work hard and harder and always to effect any kind of change in our lives, in ourselves. But at some point, the ground does get overworked. At some point, the gardener must sit back and wait for the seed to do its thing. The more we prod, the more likely we are to upset the delicate balance needed for germination. We can't, after all, influence the sun, the rains, the temperature of the soil.
Sit on your hands, if you must, but sit. You've dug the bed; let some other forces take the reins for a while.
You've invited change. To be sure, it will accept the invitation.